"Did I screw this up?"

“You’re not hard to love—you were just loving in the wrong direction. The moment you stop chasing what’s running, peace finally catches up.” – Nichole Banks

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Did I Screw This Up?

How to Let Go of Guilt and Finally Forgive Yourself

You ever have one of those quiet moments—like mid-laundry-fold or halfway through a grocery aisle—when the thought creeps in: “Did I screw this up?”

It hits out of nowhere.
One minute you’re fine, humming to whatever’s playing through the store speakers, and the next your brain is rolling out a highlight reel of every “wrong turn” you think you made.

The marriage.
The breakup.
The kids.
The job.
The moment you said “no” when you used to say “yes.”

It’s that guilt grenade that explodes in your chest without warning. And girl, it’s sneaky.

When Guilt Shows Up Uninvited

Here’s the thing about guilt—it loves a calm moment.

It doesn’t knock politely when life’s chaotic. It waits until things look peaceful. Until you’re dancing again, laughing again, breathing again.

Then it whispers:
“You should’ve tried harder.”
“Your kids are upset because of you.”
“Maybe it was your fault.”

It shows up when we see him on social media and he looks… happy.
It creeps in when our kids are struggling, and we wonder if we broke them by saving ourselves.
It crashes our joy on the dance floor because deep down, we’re still wired to take responsibility for everyone else’s feelings.

Sound familiar? Yeah. I thought so.

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My Turning Point

I found my soft life after the storm.

There was one night—me, a cold cup of coffee, and laundry I didn’t fold. I was just done.
Done pretending. Done pushing. Done performing.

So I stopped.

And that moment—when I finally let go of the need to do it all—was the most powerful thing I’d done in years.

I wasn’t giving up; I was surrendering.
To peace.
To quiet.
To me.

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When Guilt Shows Up Uninvited

Here’s the thing about guilt—it loves a calm moment.

It doesn’t knock politely when life’s chaotic. It waits until things look peaceful. Until you’re dancing again, laughing again, breathing again.

Then it whispers:
“You should’ve tried harder.”
“Your kids are upset because of you.”
“Maybe it was your fault.”

It shows up when we see him on social media and he looks… happy.
It creeps in when our kids are struggling, and we wonder if we broke them by saving ourselves.
It crashes our joy on the dance floor because deep down, we’re still wired to take responsibility for everyone else’s feelings.

Sound familiar? Yeah. I thought so.

Over-Responsibility: The Habit We Mistake for Love

If you were the fixer, the peacemaker, the one who could read a room like a weather report, then guilt probably feels like your native language.

You learned early that being “good” meant making everyone else comfortable—even if it meant sacrificing your own peace.
You smoothed things over.
You apologized first.
You anticipated needs before anyone had to ask.

And when things eventually fell apart—like a marriage, a friendship, a family dynamic—you automatically blamed yourself.

But here’s the truth, girl:
You didn’t screw it up.
You just stopped over-functioning.
You stopped playing the role of everyone’s emotional support human.

That’s not failure.
That’s alignment.

The Myth of Perfect Healing

Let’s be real—healing is not a one-way escalator to enlightenment. It’s more like a messy loop of progress, regress, and repeat.

Some days you’ll feel unstoppable. Other days you’ll cry over a song in Target. That doesn’t mean you’re broken—it means you’re human.

We love to think that one day we’ll “get over it,” never feel guilt again, and suddenly float through life in total Zen.
Spoiler alert: that day doesn’t exist.

Healing isn’t about avoiding guilt; it’s about recognizing it for what it is—an echo, not a fact.
And sometimes it hits simply because life feels too calm.
You think, “Wait… am I even allowed to be this okay?”

Yes. You are.
Peace isn’t proof you did something wrong—it’s proof you finally stopped fighting battles that were never yours.

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The Hardest Person to Forgive

You can forgive your ex.
You can forgive your friends.
You can even forgive the barista who spelled your name wrong on your latte.

But forgiving yourself? That’s the Everest climb.

Because self-forgiveness requires radical honesty.
It means saying, “Yeah, I stayed too long.”
“I reacted out of fear.”
“I made choices from pain.”
And then choosing to stop punishing yourself for being human.

You did the best you could with what you knew at the time.
Now you know better—and that’s enough.

The Reframe

Next time that “Did I screw this up?” thought sneaks in, try this:
Ask yourself, “Am I really guilty, or just uncomfortable with my own growth?”

Because guilt loves to visit when we start evolving faster than the people around us.
When we stop people-pleasing.
When we start saying “no” without an explanation.
When we stop over-explaining our peace.

That’s not screwing up.
That’s freedom.

The Truth You Need to Hear

You didn’t ruin your life—you saved it.
And that quiet, calm feeling that sometimes feels suspicious? That’s not the calm before another storm.
That’s what healing sounds like.

So, next time guilt tries to convince you that peace means you made a mistake, remind yourself: peace is what happens when you finally stop apologizing for wanting it.

You don’t need to carry the blame anymore. You just need to carry yourself forward.

Your Next Step

If this hit home, my book How to Navigate Heartache, Healing & Love After Divorce dives deeper into exactly this—how to let go of guilt, rebuild trust with yourself, and finally find peace on your own terms.

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Because, girl, you’re not broken.
You’re becoming.

With love and freedom,

Nichole Banks

Divorce Coach & Host of The Nichole Banks Podcast
✨ Creator of the Boundaries 101 Course
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